Working...
for 14h in one day is just never a good idea… part and parcel really with this industry but still never a pleasant thing… getting up the following morning at 6h30 to do it all again is quite another… my eyes are tiny small slats… noon will feel like midnight I’m sure…
Yesterday during a the work a thon I consumed… a peanut butter sandwich, half a bag of pretzels 10 pringles a tin of vanilla diet coke and a tin of Carlsberg Export… oh yea and like 4 chocolate chip biscuits… no wonder I feel woozy!
Well it’s noon now… and it’s taken me since 8am to finish this posting as we’re still trying to de-bug this bleeding microsite. But it will be worth it in the end… it’s quite sweet….
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7.6.04
I had quite an...
Emotionally tumultuous weekend… there were laughs there were lots of tears… and too much booze… there were anxiety dreams that included worrying about the pasta that I’ve left in the fridge in the office for the past week… but most of all there was the realisation that I’ve got some really great friends. Friends who put up with me being glum and did everything they could to cheer me up and keep me busy so that I didn’t stress… THANK YOU!
Now it’s a very strange place to be in when you realise that you’ve opened up your heart to someone enough to get hurt… and not just a little hurt… but enough to make you feel that horrible sinking ominous feeling… like the kind you get when you know you’ve not left enough time to cram before an exam… I don’t know what is worse… I don’t know if the situation that caused me to be upset will be resolved… but there is a chance that it may be… but it’s quite a scary place that I’ve been and goodness knows I don’t want to go back there… but if you don’t risk, you don’ live… and if you don’t follow your heart on occasion… you end up only having logical relationships… and then you end up feeling non fulfilled… it’s a catch 22… and it’s a deep hook.
Emotionally tumultuous weekend… there were laughs there were lots of tears… and too much booze… there were anxiety dreams that included worrying about the pasta that I’ve left in the fridge in the office for the past week… but most of all there was the realisation that I’ve got some really great friends. Friends who put up with me being glum and did everything they could to cheer me up and keep me busy so that I didn’t stress… THANK YOU!
Now it’s a very strange place to be in when you realise that you’ve opened up your heart to someone enough to get hurt… and not just a little hurt… but enough to make you feel that horrible sinking ominous feeling… like the kind you get when you know you’ve not left enough time to cram before an exam… I don’t know what is worse… I don’t know if the situation that caused me to be upset will be resolved… but there is a chance that it may be… but it’s quite a scary place that I’ve been and goodness knows I don’t want to go back there… but if you don’t risk, you don’ live… and if you don’t follow your heart on occasion… you end up only having logical relationships… and then you end up feeling non fulfilled… it’s a catch 22… and it’s a deep hook.
3.6.04
It’s not that...
I’ve been too busy… it’s just that really, I have. Between my phone not ringing… and working my arse off there just isn’t much time left in the day to blog. Hey ho such is life.
I’ve got a few questions…
- Is it wrong to sing while you cycle?
- Does it annoy the hell out of anyone else when people eat crisps by tilting the bag directly into their mouths instead of eating them individually? I mean the whole bag not just the crumbs at the end… even if it were just the crumbs… it’s still bloody annoying no?
- What should I get Dearbhla for her birthday?
- How soon is now?
I’ve been too busy… it’s just that really, I have. Between my phone not ringing… and working my arse off there just isn’t much time left in the day to blog. Hey ho such is life.
I’ve got a few questions…
- Is it wrong to sing while you cycle?
- Does it annoy the hell out of anyone else when people eat crisps by tilting the bag directly into their mouths instead of eating them individually? I mean the whole bag not just the crumbs at the end… even if it were just the crumbs… it’s still bloody annoying no?
- What should I get Dearbhla for her birthday?
- How soon is now?
26.5.04
Funniest banter overheard in the office today…
Was between two account manager… one can only be described as Sebastian from cruel intentions (with posh accent and dimples) the other being a low-fi chyk… She was ribbing him as she normally does…
Went something like this..
Low fi AM - “I bet you throw like a girl and all”
Sebastian-esq AM –“yes, yes I do”
Low fi AM - “ I bet you even catch like a girl too”
Sebastian-esq AM- “ no, no, darling that’s where you’re wrong… I had people to catch for me”
Why we are not all comedy script writers instead of paper pushers and flesh pressers… I’ll never know
Was between two account manager… one can only be described as Sebastian from cruel intentions (with posh accent and dimples) the other being a low-fi chyk… She was ribbing him as she normally does…
Went something like this..
Low fi AM - “I bet you throw like a girl and all”
Sebastian-esq AM –“yes, yes I do”
Low fi AM - “ I bet you even catch like a girl too”
Sebastian-esq AM- “ no, no, darling that’s where you’re wrong… I had people to catch for me”
Why we are not all comedy script writers instead of paper pushers and flesh pressers… I’ll never know
25.5.04
A couple of months or so ago I packed this all in...
Gave up the blog and was whisked about to and fro by the whirlwind stuff going down in my life. I think it was a really good idea as it was just so silly that it would of no doubt translated into some horrible drama if I would have attempted to log it. It’s all settled down remarkably now… and with the inclusion of my new ability to add photos on this blog… seems like I can squeeze a little bit more change out of things… so yes, stand by for photos… faces to names baby, faces to names!
Dan giggles at me as I very unsuccessfully tried to de-genderise the person that I’m currently seeing… But to be honest, just can’t be arsed to tip toe around the issue anymore.
I met someone with whom I have fabulous chemistry and makes me very happy. One of many challenges in this equation… is the fact that we’re mostly living in separate countries… and things still being very early days… I mostly didn’t want to write about it because I didn’t want to jinx it… I’m quite superstitious when it comes to things like that… mainly so as I’ve had so many an unsuccessful relationships with blokes… (Consult my ‘how I make people disapear’ posting)… But, yea… I’m hoping something nice comes out of it… nothing ventured nothing gained… if anything it’s been a good exercise in taking things slowly… and really having a chance to evaluate what I want and don’t want in a relationship… it’s put a lot of things into perspective for me. Don’t get me wrong it’s not like I’ve met some guy and he’s given me the answer to all things I’ve ever pondered… far from it.
Good things come from change… good things come from change
Lather
Rince
Repeat
This is the wash cycle of life… it’s all organic
Gave up the blog and was whisked about to and fro by the whirlwind stuff going down in my life. I think it was a really good idea as it was just so silly that it would of no doubt translated into some horrible drama if I would have attempted to log it. It’s all settled down remarkably now… and with the inclusion of my new ability to add photos on this blog… seems like I can squeeze a little bit more change out of things… so yes, stand by for photos… faces to names baby, faces to names!
Dan giggles at me as I very unsuccessfully tried to de-genderise the person that I’m currently seeing… But to be honest, just can’t be arsed to tip toe around the issue anymore.
I met someone with whom I have fabulous chemistry and makes me very happy. One of many challenges in this equation… is the fact that we’re mostly living in separate countries… and things still being very early days… I mostly didn’t want to write about it because I didn’t want to jinx it… I’m quite superstitious when it comes to things like that… mainly so as I’ve had so many an unsuccessful relationships with blokes… (Consult my ‘how I make people disapear’ posting)… But, yea… I’m hoping something nice comes out of it… nothing ventured nothing gained… if anything it’s been a good exercise in taking things slowly… and really having a chance to evaluate what I want and don’t want in a relationship… it’s put a lot of things into perspective for me. Don’t get me wrong it’s not like I’ve met some guy and he’s given me the answer to all things I’ve ever pondered… far from it.
Good things come from change… good things come from change
Lather
Rince
Repeat
This is the wash cycle of life… it’s all organic
24.5.04
Today
It’s oh so very exciting! Our new house will be mostly being cleaned by our wonderful new cleaning lady… now before this comes across as really elitist I must plead my case…
She’s come highly recommended… She’s Caribbean and just the most full of love for life person I’ve met in a very long time! She bounded into the flat on Satuday afternoon and there was just no doubting the fact that she Loved her job and was going to be brilliant at doing it… I mean this woman pointed out dust in places I didn’t even know existed!!! The house is a Georgian town house and is a bit tired… so it does need all the help it can get to make it liveable… But I think beyond her personality and enthusiasm, I’m quite impressed with her entrepreneurial spirit… she employs a team of people whom if need be, she enlists them to do the work she doesn’t like (namely ironing)… The best bit of this is that she will sort out anything for you that you like, weather it’s a plumber or someone to de-weed your garden… she’s even offered to unpack Dan’s room for her (mind you it’s not so necessary anymore as Dan made some impressive unpacking progress yesterday)… If you put this together with a cost of 30£ for a clean house top to bottom… you just can’t go wrong!
It was a gorgeous weekend here full of lots of sun and relaxing… did manage to see miss woo for the first time in two months since we split up… wasn’t the smoothest of meetings but it could have been a lot worse. Time will heal… clearly I think we both need a little more time… Beyond that, I mostly did some work in the Garden (office work not actual garden work) which resulted in a bit of a sun burn… then I cycled off to read the paper in Regent’s park… then gymmed it… then stayed up till 1am trying to organize my ever growing list of project for work… Not a good idea to spend more than 7h on your weekend doing office work… bad bad!!!!!
Plans are in the works to see A this weekend… depends on a lot of variables as per usual… but it would be great to hook up… it will have been 3 weeks since we were last together... but we’re both being really optimistic about things… It’s a continual challenge for me as I’m much more of a ‘want and do right away’ person … guess my job and my lifestyle afford that behaviour… He works freelance all over the gaff and is much much more limited in making definite plans… we’re kind of dreaming about laying down some context and foundation and such… but no rush really… as this cautious heart is in no hurry to be broken again … or cause anyone else’s to be… But when we're together it all just seems to work really well... and that's fun and scary and exciting all wrapped up on one...
*crosses fingers and toes*
It’s oh so very exciting! Our new house will be mostly being cleaned by our wonderful new cleaning lady… now before this comes across as really elitist I must plead my case…
She’s come highly recommended… She’s Caribbean and just the most full of love for life person I’ve met in a very long time! She bounded into the flat on Satuday afternoon and there was just no doubting the fact that she Loved her job and was going to be brilliant at doing it… I mean this woman pointed out dust in places I didn’t even know existed!!! The house is a Georgian town house and is a bit tired… so it does need all the help it can get to make it liveable… But I think beyond her personality and enthusiasm, I’m quite impressed with her entrepreneurial spirit… she employs a team of people whom if need be, she enlists them to do the work she doesn’t like (namely ironing)… The best bit of this is that she will sort out anything for you that you like, weather it’s a plumber or someone to de-weed your garden… she’s even offered to unpack Dan’s room for her (mind you it’s not so necessary anymore as Dan made some impressive unpacking progress yesterday)… If you put this together with a cost of 30£ for a clean house top to bottom… you just can’t go wrong!
It was a gorgeous weekend here full of lots of sun and relaxing… did manage to see miss woo for the first time in two months since we split up… wasn’t the smoothest of meetings but it could have been a lot worse. Time will heal… clearly I think we both need a little more time… Beyond that, I mostly did some work in the Garden (office work not actual garden work) which resulted in a bit of a sun burn… then I cycled off to read the paper in Regent’s park… then gymmed it… then stayed up till 1am trying to organize my ever growing list of project for work… Not a good idea to spend more than 7h on your weekend doing office work… bad bad!!!!!
Plans are in the works to see A this weekend… depends on a lot of variables as per usual… but it would be great to hook up… it will have been 3 weeks since we were last together... but we’re both being really optimistic about things… It’s a continual challenge for me as I’m much more of a ‘want and do right away’ person … guess my job and my lifestyle afford that behaviour… He works freelance all over the gaff and is much much more limited in making definite plans… we’re kind of dreaming about laying down some context and foundation and such… but no rush really… as this cautious heart is in no hurry to be broken again … or cause anyone else’s to be… But when we're together it all just seems to work really well... and that's fun and scary and exciting all wrapped up on one...
*crosses fingers and toes*
21.5.04
Brrr
It’s so cold here in the studio today… the nice weather we had at the beginning of the week has been replaced with a chilly 15 degrees… I was playing the cardigans and Fiona Apple earlier but as I write… we’re Micheal Jacksoning out… Thriller always reminds me of Vincent Price at the end… Vincent Price reminds me of being 16 and hanging out with Jenn Dobbin… Teaching her how to smoke… taking acid (while carefully trying to plan to drop at the right time so that we could be remotely normal before we had to return home for our curfews) and oh yes… Dr. Goldfoot movies … that’s where the Vincent Price comes in… What a laugh.
Needless to say, all those naughty activities of my youth have been replaced by far more deviant behaviour… and sadly a lot less Dr. Goldfoot… Ho hum
Did I mention how fab it is, that next weekend is another bank holiday? I am mostly being impressed with this fact.
It’s so cold here in the studio today… the nice weather we had at the beginning of the week has been replaced with a chilly 15 degrees… I was playing the cardigans and Fiona Apple earlier but as I write… we’re Micheal Jacksoning out… Thriller always reminds me of Vincent Price at the end… Vincent Price reminds me of being 16 and hanging out with Jenn Dobbin… Teaching her how to smoke… taking acid (while carefully trying to plan to drop at the right time so that we could be remotely normal before we had to return home for our curfews) and oh yes… Dr. Goldfoot movies … that’s where the Vincent Price comes in… What a laugh.
Needless to say, all those naughty activities of my youth have been replaced by far more deviant behaviour… and sadly a lot less Dr. Goldfoot… Ho hum
Did I mention how fab it is, that next weekend is another bank holiday? I am mostly being impressed with this fact.
19.5.04
Ginger Joeys and beastie staples
I was in a meeting this morning in town with our big parent advertising agency and in the meeting with the English version of Joey from Friends… only difference being, was that he was slightly ginger… mad me giggle.
The sun is just belting it down here today, not a cloud in the sky. I spent 15 mins outside at lunch and caught loads of red!
Took the flatmate out for supper last night to celebrate her day of birthing… was so late and we were both so hungry we literally inhaled our meals and a bottle of bolle in a matter of 45 mins! It was nice. Getting up this morning… a bit less nice as I had to be in town for 9h10… a bit earlier than I’m accustomed to.
I so so so totally have the coolest mini stapler (yes I have an unnatural affinity for all that is stationary…) it’s called a ‘beastie’ and it’s ickle and green with yellow mouth and tail… it makes a very distinctive ‘arggh arghh’ noise when you use it. (okay that’s just me making the sound effect… but no joke, I’m unable to use it without making the sound to go along with it. Everyone should own one.
I was in a meeting this morning in town with our big parent advertising agency and in the meeting with the English version of Joey from Friends… only difference being, was that he was slightly ginger… mad me giggle.
The sun is just belting it down here today, not a cloud in the sky. I spent 15 mins outside at lunch and caught loads of red!
Took the flatmate out for supper last night to celebrate her day of birthing… was so late and we were both so hungry we literally inhaled our meals and a bottle of bolle in a matter of 45 mins! It was nice. Getting up this morning… a bit less nice as I had to be in town for 9h10… a bit earlier than I’m accustomed to.
I so so so totally have the coolest mini stapler (yes I have an unnatural affinity for all that is stationary…) it’s called a ‘beastie’ and it’s ickle and green with yellow mouth and tail… it makes a very distinctive ‘arggh arghh’ noise when you use it. (okay that’s just me making the sound effect… but no joke, I’m unable to use it without making the sound to go along with it. Everyone should own one.
18.5.04
So I figured…
That since everything in my life has changed lately I may as well give the old blog a bit of a facelift too! The most exciting thing about applying the new template is that you can now jump into the way back when machine and read all the very first entries that I made… Reading them is so surreal for me, as it seems like an absolute lifetime ago!
We’re having a bit of a preview of summer here in London… It was 25 yesterday and lovely… today it’s pretty much the same thing. I’m hoping that this sets the tune for the summer… cause with this new job I know there won’t be much room for time off… or travel so, the nicer it is here, the better!
Ah yes, today marks the 29th birthday of my lovely flatmate! HAPPY B’DAY miss B!
That since everything in my life has changed lately I may as well give the old blog a bit of a facelift too! The most exciting thing about applying the new template is that you can now jump into the way back when machine and read all the very first entries that I made… Reading them is so surreal for me, as it seems like an absolute lifetime ago!
We’re having a bit of a preview of summer here in London… It was 25 yesterday and lovely… today it’s pretty much the same thing. I’m hoping that this sets the tune for the summer… cause with this new job I know there won’t be much room for time off… or travel so, the nicer it is here, the better!
Ah yes, today marks the 29th birthday of my lovely flatmate! HAPPY B’DAY miss B!
17.5.04
You know how sometimes history repeats itself?
Well in my life I’ve got this history… back when I used to date boys… they had the tendency to disappear. Now a few of my friends joke with me and allude to me burying them in the garden under the deck… but seriously… there is no exaggerating here…
First occurrence - > 2nd year uni… was dating this guy named graydon… went home for the summer after uni finished for the year… went down on the train to visit him in his hometown just before heading off on a holiday in Europe with my sister… Upon my return everything was still kosher… and I then headed back down to Ottawa to find a flat with one of my mates… On the way back we stopped in at the bloke’s house for a visit and a quick catch up before heading back on the road to Toronto… Again all was good. However that was the last time I ever heard from said bloke… He Stopped ringing didn’t return my calls… and then ultimately didn’t return to Uni that fall…MIA!!!!
Second occurrence: 3rd year uni… was living in Lyon in France. Met this lovely guy that I fancied the pants off of (literally) His name was Sylvain. We started seeing each other casually for about 2 weeks… then there was a bit of drama as this guy I knew from home pitched up and of threw a spanner in the works… we got past that… then he promptly fell off the radar.
But the real disappearance thing was that even his friends hadn’t heard from him… he didn’t return anyone’s calls and didn’t have any contact with anyone anymore… months passed and all of a sudden he re-surfaced! Almost like he had never been away… Of course I was well weary of him as I was beginning to think that I had this talent in making people disappear… We hung out a bit more and wouldn’t you know it… not but a few weeks later in some sort of panic relating to military service, he was gone again…. This time it was forever… okay well at least until I left the city… I know that the story leans towards him falling off the radar because of the other guy situation but truly it was quite a non issue…
I have never managed to figure out what happened in either situation… no warning… no clues… I mean even their mates had no idea what happened to them! Am I so horrible? Nahh… I don’t think so, I just think it’s funny that it’s happened to me so often… perhaps I’m a bit reinvent of this all since I’m sort of starting off a new relationship… brings up old paranoias… perhaps the fact that the person in question as of late is a bit less than local… and a bit more male than the last few people I’ve dated… I tell you… there are a lot of new things going on in my life… I don’t know quite how to write it all down… or even if I should… ahhh feck it. You only live once right?
Well in my life I’ve got this history… back when I used to date boys… they had the tendency to disappear. Now a few of my friends joke with me and allude to me burying them in the garden under the deck… but seriously… there is no exaggerating here…
First occurrence - > 2nd year uni… was dating this guy named graydon… went home for the summer after uni finished for the year… went down on the train to visit him in his hometown just before heading off on a holiday in Europe with my sister… Upon my return everything was still kosher… and I then headed back down to Ottawa to find a flat with one of my mates… On the way back we stopped in at the bloke’s house for a visit and a quick catch up before heading back on the road to Toronto… Again all was good. However that was the last time I ever heard from said bloke… He Stopped ringing didn’t return my calls… and then ultimately didn’t return to Uni that fall…MIA!!!!
Second occurrence: 3rd year uni… was living in Lyon in France. Met this lovely guy that I fancied the pants off of (literally) His name was Sylvain. We started seeing each other casually for about 2 weeks… then there was a bit of drama as this guy I knew from home pitched up and of threw a spanner in the works… we got past that… then he promptly fell off the radar.
But the real disappearance thing was that even his friends hadn’t heard from him… he didn’t return anyone’s calls and didn’t have any contact with anyone anymore… months passed and all of a sudden he re-surfaced! Almost like he had never been away… Of course I was well weary of him as I was beginning to think that I had this talent in making people disappear… We hung out a bit more and wouldn’t you know it… not but a few weeks later in some sort of panic relating to military service, he was gone again…. This time it was forever… okay well at least until I left the city… I know that the story leans towards him falling off the radar because of the other guy situation but truly it was quite a non issue…
I have never managed to figure out what happened in either situation… no warning… no clues… I mean even their mates had no idea what happened to them! Am I so horrible? Nahh… I don’t think so, I just think it’s funny that it’s happened to me so often… perhaps I’m a bit reinvent of this all since I’m sort of starting off a new relationship… brings up old paranoias… perhaps the fact that the person in question as of late is a bit less than local… and a bit more male than the last few people I’ve dated… I tell you… there are a lot of new things going on in my life… I don’t know quite how to write it all down… or even if I should… ahhh feck it. You only live once right?
13.5.04
Day four and the pace is quickening and work is piling up… mildly reminiscent of my first few days at frameworks but with a lot more organization.
I’ve got my leaving drinks tonight with the chello crew. I know it’s only been a week since I’ve seen them but it feels like a lifetime!
Cycling here seems to be taking me an hour each way as I’ve yet to navigate the most efficient route… don’t get me wrong it’s not too hard but I’m simply taking my time to familiarise myself with the wilds of west London. (that’s the story I’m sticking to) but the cardio is good good good!
There is a large ball of fire in the sky today… the likes of which I’ve only ever recently seen when I was in Spain…. I am most perplexed.
I’ve got my leaving drinks tonight with the chello crew. I know it’s only been a week since I’ve seen them but it feels like a lifetime!
Cycling here seems to be taking me an hour each way as I’ve yet to navigate the most efficient route… don’t get me wrong it’s not too hard but I’m simply taking my time to familiarise myself with the wilds of west London. (that’s the story I’m sticking to) but the cardio is good good good!
There is a large ball of fire in the sky today… the likes of which I’ve only ever recently seen when I was in Spain…. I am most perplexed.
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